Determined…

I ended up riding my bike down to the water today and I saw a big group of people in a parking lot and they seemed to be waiting for something. They were dressed like they were ready for a party, and they had shopping bags filled with alcohol. I watched a photographer walked around and photograph groups of people make funny faces and gestures at the camera. It seemed like a circus to me.

Sometimes I look around the world and it seems like everything is just impossible for me to accomplish. In these moments I try to kick myself and snap out of it. It’s a sort of indulgence to wallow in self pity and contempt, and it never seems to bring any good results. Anyway, I was observing this scene here and I was thinking about the relationships between people and electronics. I saw that the camera was affecting the way that people behaved, knowing that an image of their body at that time would be viewed at a later time. I thought about how in the past, this wasn’t really a possibility, but probably peoples memories were much sharper so they could remember details even though something happened years ago.

The next moment, a large stretch SUV limo pulled up and I saw on the license plate border, “san mateo limo“. The driver was dressed sharp and had an air about him that seemed to impressed even the rowdy party people.

I saw the driver with his chin held high and he seemed proud of his job. At the same time, when I looked into his eyes, he held a sadness in his eyes that spoke these words to me, “trapped”.